└ Tags: a month, a very real thing, a young boy, abdominal cramping, about the subject, accosted, accosted my fiancé, acquired on family vacation, addiction to comics, after offering help, after they, against, age of the earth, airplane, airplane diagram, all call me, all just something, all over, alternate realities, although it isn't, an actual whip, an enemy, ancient creature, and a, and dozer, and I kept, and I was, and shock, and sister, and the laughing kids, and they told her, anger, another week, anxiety cloud, any time the panic attack, anytime soon, art, Art Direction, artist, artists', artwork, as I registered, as if, as something real, as though I'd disappeared, asked the teacher, assessed, assessing, asshole, at something, at the time, attack, attacks, attacks of fear, authentic, autobio, autobiographical, autobiography, award, away from the other kids, Awesome, back to california, back to sleep, backaches, bart simpson, Bart Simpson Terminator, be with her family, begged for, being a nerd, being able to calm and feed her, best graphic novel, best graphic novel ever, beyond me, big don't, black and white, blinking steadily, blood all over, blood spurted, bloody nose, boom, braided rope, breathing smoke, bringing food, broken chicken bone, brought them, brought to me, bully, bullying, buried, but I, by a situation, by the end, by the mailboxes, by the time, c.k. dexter haven, California, call him indy, calm down, calming down, canceling plans, cartooning, cartoonist, cartoony, cause symptoms of, chapel, chapter four, chest pain, Childhood, chips inner circle, Classroom, click, coated the post, cold night sky, collected, come in, Comic, comic book, comic book artist, Comic Books, comic strip, comics, comics changed my life, comix, commit suicide, communion cups, community, content, continuing with vigilance, conversation, conviction, convulsing and drooling, cover both of our expenses, cover the cracks, crack!, creator owned, crowd scene, crumbling, culminating, custom type, cutaway, damaged drawing, dark, dark cloud, day off of school, deal made, deal with panic attacks, Deathly afraid, debilitating, decided to hang out, defeat it, depression, described them in vivid detail, Design, desperate for help, did this to confirm, Different, difficulty, difficulty making friends, dinosaur fossils, discarded, discovered, dizziness, dogs, don't dismiss, don't go yet, don't tell, doubling down, down my face, draw, drawing, drawing error, drawing of, dressing up, dry mouth, dude, during recess, during tribulation, each student, early mention, easy to live down, either, ensnaring, entire class, entire class to join, eventually overcame them, everything, everything changed, excavated, exit, expedition, experience, experience massive chest pain, extended, eye holes, eyes, eyes wide, faces, Failed Suicide, fake leather, falling, fame and fortune, family, fear, fear of disaster, fear people have, feared, fears, fedora, feel better, feel out of control, feeling, feeling of losing control, feels as though, feels like the oncoming of a heart attack, Felt, felt like, festered, few years, fifth grade, filled me with shock, finally, finance's discernibly, find their favorite, first date, fits of self-hatred, flashed, flew in, fly in, fog, followed my fathers death, food, for christmas, for the Entirety, for treating her well, forehead, fossil, fossilized remains, frail body, Freelance Illustration, freight train, frightening, from, from my nose all over him, from panic disorder, from the ceiling, from the dark cloud, fucking awesome, Full Page, full sabre-toothed tiger skeleton, furiously, get my fiancé back, get to know, getting punished for attacking someone who attacked me, getting really into, give an activity, going to, gone invisible, good partner, graphic design, graphic novel, had decided, hadn't, hadn't helped, hadn't tried, half of the year, hand holding, Hand Lettering, hands, hard into my face, having, having it, having to live, heavily, help, help find, helped push it along, helpless, her mom, her mother, her mouth jittering, her sister, her to calm down, here have some blood, hero finally confronts, hey indy, Hi, his folder, honestly didn't know what to do, honey, hot flashes, how to deal with someone having a panic attack, Humor, I can't make the gallery show, I couldn't provide, i decided I was going to stop having them, I did the bare minimum, I don't, I don't want to hear it, I drew this, I fell in love., I felt jealous, I had, I had actually, I had shared, I hadn't, I haven't, I knocked him over, I learned, I like drawing too, I marched, I not only, I packed, I read, I read advice about, I read everything I could find, i remember, I studied, I totally love his work, I was filled with rage, I was no longer, i would create, I would tell myself, I yelled, I'll be okay, I'm here, I'm Jacob, I'm not, ice, if you put your mind to it, illogical, imagine, in a relationship with someone suffering, in class, in doing so, in it's clutches, in my heart, in my initial reaction, in pain, in reading more about it, in school, in urine, indiana jones, indiana jones hat, indie, indigenous, indy, ink, inner voice, insisting, instructing, invited, is the only, it looked, It was exhausting, it was like I didn't exist, It'll okay, it's a post, It's a Terrible Life, it's clutches, it's not a physical problem, It's okay, jacket, joined me, joke, josh, Josh Kemble, joshua, Joshua Kemble, joshuakemble.com, just left, just so many other things, k, kemble, kids, kinship, la brea tar pits, last several minutes, lasted, later, left to go back, left with our, lifeless, like, little money, living as, living in a fantasy world, long night, looked up, loss of control, lost to me forever, love, ma ma, made a good friend, made for me, Mai Kemble, mailboxes, make the, marking each cup, me, me away from troy, medical help, memory, mental illness, mervyn's, met, Missed, mom, more projects, more stress than the brain can handle, most mental anguish, mostly stuck, mother, mouth, move to breathing, much to do, muscles of the neck, my classmates, my costume, my desk, my difficulties, my drawing, my fiancé, my first best friend, my hands and shirt, my own comics, my own little world, my tear soaked face, my white shirt, nagging, nausea, needed to, neil gaiman, neon sign, no car, no luggage, no one cares, no smoking, no true danger, no warning, nose, not life threatening, nothing, nothing was wrong, now stained with blood, of fourth grade, of me, of my loneliness, of the attack, of the sandbox, office, old, on a plaque, on comic, on the first day of school, on the night, on their own, once, online, onto my shirt, or chills, or going crazy, or our apartment, or us, our, our apartment, out of the blue, overcoming the depression, packed up, page 44, palpitations, panel, panic, panic attack, panic attacks, panic disorder, panic disorders, part of our, passed, Passed me, peeing, Pen, pen and ink, persistence, person, pilots' jacket, plane, playground, pointed and laughed, Polynothing, Portland, portland old town sign, portland oregon sign, portland sign, present, pretended, pretty good, priceless discovery, principal's office, properly, Pug, pugs, putting in weeks of work, Quarterly Stories, quarterly stories.com, quarterlystories, quickly as I could, quiet area, quietly drawing, rapid over-breathing, rather violent, real, reality, really thought, reassurance, reassuring but firm, received, refusing to give in, remaining bones, resented her, resenting her, resentment and anger, rested her head, revealing, rubbing blood, rumble, running at full speed, saber toothed tiger, saber-toothed, sabre-toothed tiger, sad eyes, samples, sand pit, sandbox, school, seated in front of me, seemed unusual, seemingly billowing, self portrait, self reliance, self-harm, selling alone, selling your comics, send home with a warning, shading, she could mentally shut off, she just laid there, she needed, she opened up, she went, shock and awe, show and tell, since she had mentioned, skepticism of her disorder, slammed the trapper keeper, slightly maddening, slipped an ice cube, slowly spread, smoke, smugly smiling, snap out of it, snorting pug, snow, snowing, snuck into, so that I could assist in any way, soar, soil samples, some ice cubes, sorry, sound, speak to her, splatter, spot to claim, standing above, staring in fear, started, started to pull, staying rational, stick close, still felt weird, stood by offering, Stop, stop attacking me, straight, straining to make, Strip, struggle, stuff, sucked the ice, sudden and repeated, suddenly I was in a situation, suffered from severe panic attacks, suffering, suggestion columns, suicide, suicide game, suicide note, sunday comics, sunday funnies, super-villain, swabbed, swallowing, Swoosh, teacher, tears streaming, terminator two, thank you, that I should, that keeps, that kind of thing, that night, that stood out, that they were, that was the night, the attack wont simply end once you've calmed down, the better side of me, the blood in my veins boiled, the bloody comic, the cause, the cloud, the day before, the depression cloud, the dig site, the following day, the following week, the kid, the next, the other day, the panic, the panic attack, the principal's office, The Stakes, the teacher, the thing, the way, the whole thing, the worst side of me, their wrinkled, theme, then jumped on top of him, then remove the cause, then work, there just wasn't, these attacks, they were, they're out of control, this good night, this is no acceptable, this is pretty good, this was, those around you, Three weeks into it, through my soul, tiger, tigers tooth, tightening up the muscles, time, tingling fingers, to be fair, to deal, to distract, to drawing, to have, to help, to kick in, to move away, to my horror, to say, to southern california, to the doctor, to try to determine, toes, tooth, totally amazing, trapper keeper, traveled, treating it, trembling, tremoring hands, triggered, troy, troy stood there, try saying, try to help, trying to figure out what exactly I could do, turned around and said, turned red with anger, turned toward, two minutes, Two Stories, two sure things in life, two weeks, unable to bear it, unable to move, unable to stop shaking, underground, unexpected, unfortunately, use of language, using, usually brought on, usually followed, villains mask, visible enough, wait, walk away, walked by, wallpaper, wanted other kids, warm towel, was one, was over, was still having to work, wasn't, wasn't comfortable, wasn't entirely, wasn't exactly, water, way to help, we went, wearing a fedora, webcomic, went with them, Were those comics you were drawing, what, What I discovered, what methods work when, what turned out, whatever is going on, when her mother, when I couldn't, when I remembered, when I sat, when I was, when the onset, where I read, where to dig, where's your hat, which can, which I did, which way, whip, who could deal, whoosh, will never happen, wiping the blood, with an attack, with my hands, with my words, with other kids, with the thought, within sight, without need, woman falling, woman sleeping, work, workload, worse, would have been, write off, Writing, yelling, you are crazy, you are not in control of the situation, you can get over, you have lost your marbles, you need eat, you wanted blood, you will die, you're going crazy
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